The Pleasure Principle

...and I am not talking about the Janet song. I am talking about the principle in which two people who are kicking it have an understanding which is basically eff buddies 101. You do your thing, I do mine. And when we feel the need, we execute the pleasure principle.

The reason why I as is because this "proposition" has been presented to me a few times by the same gentleman and I turned it down. I told a girlfriend of mine while driving to work this morning that I said NO to him, and she thought I was a prude because I wasn't down with getting the D without any strings attached. She understands that right now I really don't want to be in an exclusive relationship, but is tired of hearing me say that I am missing some good bedroom action and she thought that my homie's "proposition" would ease my sexual tension. And she is right. But it's not just about easing my frustration with getting a good nut.

Like, I can't do anything halfway. I know some ninjas out there that can do that. They are satisfied with giving just 50% or 65% or some ish like that. But not your girl! When I do something, I want to do it right and I don't want to have a "buddy" whom I kick it with and then let it go down. If I can't have the relationship with the sex, then I don't want any part of it. It's like all or nothing. Am I crazy for feeling like that?

I dunno. Right now, I am in a place in my life where I want to focus on me and only me. I don't want a relationship because I am not ready to give that part of me to someone else. I've been through a lot this past year and I need to explore things by myself before I delve into the girlfriend/boyfriend thing. So no sex. 'Cause for me, sex without strings is a recipe for disaster. Someone is going to catch feelings (usually me) and then it's all downhill from there. Why even bother with that foolishness? Love games are so predictable.

I did say no to the pleasure principle. As much as I crave it, want it, think about it, and NEED it, nothing good is going to come of it. So I will stay on the solo tip for now until something magnificent this way comes. I am not settling this time. NO WAY. And it's okay to be alone. No drama. No worries. Good times.